its been my mistake to include”family“ on my decisions of my relationship with my boyfriend. My choice, and it’s obvious.. that was a dumb choice. Now they are aware of every thing that has went on prior to now.  Over a period of 3 years I have been through lies,cheating, and a broken heart. What some people don’t seem to realize is that I am a strong WOMAN I can handle a lot. Yes my heart was broken and it did hurt at that time. Many don’t realize I get mad and get over things very quickly.. I don’t hold grudges and exspecially with someone I care deeply about and means the world to me. I make one of two decisions. I work through it and make things work.. or I cut off all ties with that situation/person/realationship. There is no longer an imbetween for me. More with age I realize what matters most to me. HE GETS ME.. he gets THE REAL ME. and some may think they know the real me and they don’t. Maybe it would of been different if we didn’t become so attached so quick.. but in my eyes everything happens for a reason. && this reason for me seems to be.. I needed to grow, mature, and move on with life. Everyone experiences change.. everyone has to learn..something. and everyone has different ways of learning. I learn through pain obviosuly. I can never do anything wrong without getting in trouble for it. It’s always been that way.. I don’t think there is anything in my past that my mom doesn’t know about because for the simple fact.. I always get caught.  This is how I learn. This is when I choose to move on.  Yes he lied. So did I. Yes he cheated..  Yes he’s changed. so did I. Yes I have made him a better person. And he has I. I love him he loves me. We are ready to take any obstacle in this fucked up world to continue our journey in life together. We have come so far.. we have so far to go. If it wasn’t for him .. I can’t honestly say I wouldn’t be drinking like my friends I wouldn’t be partying like my friends I wouldn’t be sleeping with multiple guys just because they think im cute. I can’t honestly say that. But because of him I have learned to respect myself more and trust myself. I have learned that the “party scence” isn’t for me and that I’d rather have a steady guy in my life that loves me for me and treats me like a princess… I don’t think I have to justify whether or not I am being treated right. I think I know I am. When life gets tough most of the time you just want to give up… and i have given up.. many of times. And for some reason I always go back.. and most of the time yes He lets me know of all the times that we have shared that have been amazing he lets me know of the plans in the future that we want to make happen and that effects my decision. But in the end. It’s not him who makes me come back No one can MAKE me do anything. I am a grown woman I make my own decisions. People alter those decisions. BUt in the end its mine. I watch him grown and see the way he acts and reacts about things and he is maturing. All men have a hard time growing up. I’ve witness this and i’m sure every woman on this earth knows this. But its our choice to decide if this person is worth wating on to grow up. I get told many times that he will never change.. really?? Well if that was true I would be the same person that I was 2 years ago. Just something to think about.  If he won’t change the way he acts about things then I must have just been giving hope to something that doesn’t exist. Not really.. because everything he has said he will change.. he has. With exception to some things.. Things i can live with.. and I know in the long run he will grow out of. I don’t doubt us for a second. He is my soulmate he is the one that will support me and my decsions in life. Funny when you can count on a boyfriend of 3 years more than a parent of 20. From this day forward I will no longer defend my relationship I will no longer speak of it to anyone that has anythign negative to say. I will no longer let my familys opinion affect my decision to stay or not to stay with him. IF you ask about us. I will simply reply with “we are fine.”

just a note to those who are curious.