Unlike most some people, I did a lot of grown things at a young age. Never did I sit back and think to myself, You’ll regret this when your older. Well I don’t really regret the things I’ve done I suppose. Just learn from the MANY mistakes that I have made and grow to be a better person, or a smarter person even. Mostly everything I write about has to do with family, or my boyfriend, or just the thoughts that run into my head. Mostly because that is MOST of what I think about. I do second guess my self EVERY single day of my life. I don’t know if its insecurity, im sure that has a lot to do with it. I always blamed Ryan for my insecurities because I was never insecure before we got together. But I do believe most of it is myself and in my own mind. No one has the power to tell me how I FEEL no one has the power to tell me how to BELIEVE or how to ACHIEVE my goals. Advise is one thing but telling someone what to do and when do it is another thing. I choose my own destiny, I make my own decision, some people might have an effect on that but I myself do most of the choosing. I’ve gotten into this world of judging people and judging myself, and thats not who I am. I was never the girl growing up to point the finger and make fun of the fat kid or the slow one or the ugly one. And recently I will make fun of GIRLS mostly just to make sure Ryan doesn’t think they are cute. How selfish and stupid is that?? Pretty damn stupid if you ask me. So the main reason for this blog is to get some things like that off my chest and to also make a change in my life.

Not only do I need to stop JUDGING PEOPLE I need to stop JUDGING myself.

Learn to love myself like other around me love me.

I’m not that bad after all. hahah.