if only people could understand my mind… understand the thoughts that i have and the things i have been through and are still going through. I have so many wonderful people in my life… family matters so much to me.. i’m not very close to anyone OUTSIDE the immediate family. I grew up disrespecting my mom because it was easy… i regret this more than anything now the present is what matters, my mother is my rock, she will be a part of my soul till the day i die, because we both chose that. Here I am, with tears falling from my eyes, writing this just thinking about how much she has affected my life and the choices I have made and are still making. No words can completely explain the bond we have together. No one will ever replace that. No one can. She gets me more than I get myself. She knows the secrets that even the love of my life doesn’t. She never passes judgment, and excepts my flaws. You may think oh thats part of what a mother does. No it isn’t. They have a choice in life too. And she chose me. I get flack all the time from my dad for loving her so much. *divorced when i was 3, marriage was a wreck way before that* All the hate he has for her, because I’m his daughter and he does so much for me I should have that to?? Never have and never will. I will be the one person in his life that will stick up for her no matter how much wrong she has done or how much she has hurt him. I love her for the woman she has made me, I love her for the woman she has become. And I respect her more than I could respect myself for her honesty and huge heart. We are more like one person when it comes down to a lot of things. And I love that I can have this bond and relationship with my mother.