Sometimes what we are feeling seems overwhelming and we try to stop feeling it. Anger can feel like something to stop, to get rid of…but perhaps it is just a message from our inner self that guides us to greater knowledge that can improve our quality of life. Before you push the anger down or throw it at someone else take a look and see…what’s in this for me?

if only people could understand my mind… understand the thoughts that i have and the things i have been through and are still going through. I have so many wonderful people in my life… family matters so much to me.. i’m not very close to anyone OUTSIDE the immediate family. I grew up disrespecting my mom because it was easy… i regret this more than anything now the present is what matters, my mother is my rock, she will be a part of my soul till the day i die, because we both chose that. Here I am, with tears falling from my eyes, writing this just thinking about how much she has affected my life and the choices I have made and are still making. No words can completely explain the bond we have together. No one will ever replace that. No one can. She gets me more than I get myself. She knows the secrets that even the love of my life doesn’t. She never passes judgment, and excepts my flaws. You may think oh thats part of what a mother does. No it isn’t. They have a choice in life too. And she chose me. I get flack all the time from my dad for loving her so much. *divorced when i was 3, marriage was a wreck way before that* All the hate he has for her, because I’m his daughter and he does so much for me I should have that to?? Never have and never will. I will be the one person in his life that will stick up for her no matter how much wrong she has done or how much she has hurt him. I love her for the woman she has made me, I love her for the woman she has become. And I respect her more than I could respect myself for her honesty and huge heart. We are more like one person when it comes down to a lot of things. And I love that I can have this bond and relationship with my mother.